The Journey We Are On.....

On the morning of Wednesday, January 13th around 8a.m., we checked in at our local children's hospital for a previously scheduled 24 hr EEG. Since Jeff needed to be at work we arranged for Jeff's dad to come up the night before and stay with Ethan and I at the hospital for part of the day on Wednesday, and for my mom to come up and spend the rest of the day with us at the hospital, until Jeff could join us after he got off of work. Since this was a previously scheduled EEG, I expected that things should go pretty smoothly, as far as being admitted to the pediatrics floor and getting the procedure started. Ethan has had EEGs in the past and it has never been pretty. He hates to be held down and having 26 electrodes attached to his head is not something he finds enjoyable (at all)! In the past the EEGs have lasted about an hour, and this time it was supposed to last 24 hrs!!!! We knew that this wasn't going to be pleasant. We knew that it was going to be rough.  Unfor...

It wasn't a great day for Ethan. Although he did okay at church, he had several seizures during his nap after we got home from church. For the last several days the seizures seem to be contained to nap time, and we have no idea why and this evening, Ethan was just not his usual self. It took him much longer than usual to fall asleep -- more than an hour later than what is pretty typical for him. We aren't really sure what is going on, but he did just have another medication change on Friday (the dose of Onfi continues to slowly decrease, as the dose of Phenobarbital continues to slowly increase) so that might be why he is acting different.  I am scared. I hate PBD-ZSD so much. I hate the seizures, I hate the physical and cognitive disabilities and the health issues that come with it. I hate that we don't yet have effective life-saving treatment options (or a cure). I hate that so many of my friends can no longer hug their children and kiss them goodnight, and I hate th...

As 2015 came to a close last night I couldn't help but think about all that has happened and how much has changed in the last twelve months. Ethan got his own car, thanks to the Metamora H.S. robotics team! Ethan had PT in the pool for the first time! We celebrated Rare Disease Day 2015! I spent the night away from Ethan for the first time EVER. I actually did this on two separate occasions. Jeff and Ethan did better the second time around then they did the first, but I'm so glad that I was able to go on the short trips, even if it took me away from them. The first was to OK where I was able to visit with two fellow PBD-ZSD families. For the second I road the train from Bloomington to Chicago for the first time and attended a NORD conference in Downtown Chicago.  Several dear close friends were forced to say goodbye to children who died because we still don't have life-saving treatment options for PBD-ZSD and thousands of other rare diseases. ...

Thursday morning Ethan had a previously scheduled EEG, that had been ordered a couple of months back when all the crazy seizure breakthrough stuff begun. Obviously, the hope was that enough time would pass and that the medications would be working well and that the EEG would show that Ethan's seizure activity would be "under control." Since the last five to six weeks have been a real rollercoaster in terms of Ethan's seizures and so we weren't really sure what the EEG would show us. EEG's are stressful for Ethan. He is sleep deprived, to start with, and then he is held down so that more than 20 electrodes are attached to his head. Then we have to try to make him sleep and not allow him to pull the electrodes off of his head. Ethan gets extremely agitated because he is being held down and people are touching him. After that, he is pretty exhausted from fighting and typically is able to eventually rest for the test. It is preferable for an individua...

Ethan was so tired tonight. He had a busy day at school, which also included a field trip to Bass Pro to meet Santa and to go bowling, and then this evening we had our first visit to the Playhouse Children's Museum. More importantly though, here's a quick medical update: We are thankful to report that for the last two days no one has seen any seizures, so we are hoping and praying that this most recent increase in his medications might be making a difference. Our current neurologist (the one who is 2 hours away) called in a stronger dose for the diazepam. Ethan had been prescribed a 2.5 mg dose by the neurologist who saw him when he was hospitalized last month, but since it has not stopped the seizures the last 2 times it was administered, our neurologist calculated that a 7.5 mg dose is more appropriate for his weight.  So our hope is that the new dose will stop the cluster seizures, if they occur again. Obviously, the goal is to not have a need to use the...

Yesterday, our family got to take another trip to the ER. Just a little after 7am, after I had fed Ethan breakfast and gave him his morning medications, he and I came into the living room to play before we had to get ready to leave for school. Ethan had 5 seizures, each lasting 10 to 15 seconds, back to back. Jeff had not yet left for work so I had him get the Diazepam, Ethan's rescue medication, and we gave it to him. The Diazepam is supposed to stop the cluster seizures, but it didn't. The seizures continued and didn't show any signs of stopping so the three of us packed up and headed off to the ER. By the time we arrived at the ER the drowsiness that is a side effect of the Diazepam was very evident, and although Ethan wasn't sleeping, he was definitely out of it. He had another small seizure shortly after we got to the hospital while we were being checked in. Once again his vitals were monitored and blood taken. The doctor spoke on the phone with our neurologist...

On Wednesday, I got a call from Ethan's school that he was had a cluster of uncontrollable seizures, that lasted about 4 minutes, so I went and got him from school and brought him home. He was exhausted and rested a majority of the day, but we didn't see another seizure all night. Yesterday, I decided to keep Ethan home from school and let him continue to rest, because he slept in and seemed extremely tired. We had a nice pajama day here at home, he was extra affectionate and took a really good afternoon nap. We didn't see any seizures all day. This morning Ethan woke up and seemed well rested and was acting like his usual self, so I took him to school. School begins at 8:30am and just about an hour later I got a call from his teacher letting me know that Ethan had had another seizure episode and that it lasted over 5 minutes so the nurse had given him the rectal Diazepam. Of course, I was freaked out and I let them know that I would be there as soon as possible. As I ...